Today My Life Begins =)

Today My Life Begins - Bruno Mars

I've been working hard so long
Seems like pain has been my only friend
My fragile heart's been done so wrong
I wondered if i'd ever heal again

* Ohh just like all the seasons never stay the same
  All around me i can feel a change (ohh)           

  I will break these chains that bind me, happiness will find me
  Leave the past behind me, today my life begins                                x2
 A whole new world is waiting it's mine for the taking
 I know i can make it, today my life begins

Yesterday has come and gone
And i've learn how to leave it where it is
And i see that i was wrong
For ever doubting i could win

Life's to short to have regrets
So i'm learning now to leave it in the past and try to forget
Only have one life to live
So you better make the best of it

I will break these chains that bind me, happiness will find me
Leave the past behind me, today my life begins
A whole new world is waiting it's mine for the taking
I know i can make it, today my life begins

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One week is enough for all the sadness and emo-ness..

Time to get back on track..

Just leave the pains behind, although it's still hurts inside..

Gonna get myself focus on the studies..

For the paid off efforts will be worthwhile in the future..

There's a meaningful quote " Don't make someone as ur priority, when u are only the someone's option! "

It's sad but in fact it's true..

Never waste time for someone who does not have time for u,

Be with someone who will say, " Time is wasted if i'm not with u. " 

Being single somehow is good,

Like today i have got a free dessert from a very kind waiter,

Because i was having lunch alone there.

If there is a bf with me just now,

I don't think i would get this kind of advantage. *evil grins*

So yea think positively, there's always ways for God to lighten up ur days,

When He hasn't send u the special someone yet,

He will send u angels for the guardian together with small little gifts in life.

Cheers! ^-^

='(

Im missing u! very very much! 

Are u feeling the same way as i do? I guess not..

To prevent myself from telling u how do i feel for the whole day, i can only choose to write it down here.

From yesterday until now, i just can't stop myself from thinking of u n our conversation of the night..

I kept looking back at that conversation, n now i can memorize every single words of that already..

Tears keep on dropping throughout the whole day.. 

I can't focus on my work.. I don't feel like doing anything but keep thinking of us.. 

All those memories and every single corner of the house keep reminding me of ur presence.. 

How i wish i could wipe off everything.. Every single pieces of our memories are killing me slowly.. 

Im feeling so weak now, keep on crying.. Im not like me anymore..
I thought im always a tough girl and will be tough enough to face all these.. 
But the fact is that im just an ordinary girl who is helpless and feeling lost when comes to relationship.. I really don't like myself to be like this..

One thing to be glad is that ching doesn't notice any changes of me.. And i managed to keep my tears off when she is around.. =)

Day 1: nothing has done but keep dropping tears.. not doing good enough.. hopes tmr will has abit of improvement.. my life still goes on! gambateh!

Let time do its job!

When you really matter to someone,

that person will always make time for you.

No excuses, no lies, and no broken promises.

When he doesn't, 

it simply means that you are not that important,

and it's time to let go everything and move on. 

08.05.2011

It may be a time of new beginnings, 

a time of growth, 

a time of reaping the harvest of hard work, 

or a time of rest. 

Trust this beautiful order. 

Everything in its time. 

~ I really hope that there is a time and a season for everything.